abhijit ratnakar

Hello,

I am 35 now and suffering from mid life career crisis. I left my last job in March 2023 in HR profile and after that I done small odd jobs of not more than 3-4 months because of which i have not mentioned in the CV. Also there are constant jumps with in period of 6 months to 1 year due to which interviewer is not getting convinced. Due to which i am not getting interview calls and if I receive any call I am unable to explain the gap. At this age my salary should have been 1 lac per month, because the home in which I live it has high maintenance and tax. At this age I should have taken control of the whole house by paying bills, taxes and other expenses. Still now I am in the range of 14-15 k since 11-12 relevant experience. I have not cleared probation period in any of the companies I have worked till now. I am unable to decide what to do further in life. Because in job I dont think I would be able to earn 1 lac per month. We have family business but due to some clashes in the thinking there are constant fights so I am not joining it. Still I am living on parents livelihood(Dad and Mom House). How can i buy house in this less salary and also inflation is rising day by day. For any business I dont have investment. Due to low salary I am not getting proper respect in the society treating me as a inferior person and also people are ghosting me. I am also unable to cope in highly demanding and competitive work environment in big MNC's. Boss gives some work at the end of shift timimg and say's"I want this excel report to be done right now". After making report boss, higher management and client will always find some loop holes by not allowing to go home and making me work more.Then there is client escalation. Client, higher management are never satisfied with the work done. Even for asking one single/some leave they start making faces.Every day going to job/office is becoming curse for me, because I am still not able to figure out what things I am passionate about.I also did my DMIT test for which it was showing all my personality traits in which I am good at. I also done several counselling sessions which didn't turned out to be fruitful. I am just living life in compromises.(Jaisa chal raha hai chalne do.bas dhakel raha hu zindagi).When I reach office, I am constantly watching my watch that when it will be evening and I will go home.Even if I think of doing some online courses, its not that after course completion I will be getting job with higher package. Cracking Interview is also a challenge for getting job.After getting job there will be again probation period in which I need to prove myself, otherwise I will be kicked out.In big Companies one need to prove themselves in order to get his/her work recognised which I am unable to do. What should I do. Please help.